Hugs

The power of a hug is enormous. Yesterday was a crazy day, we had our kick-off party for Get Connected and Student Ambassadors and before that could happen we had to go get enough volunteers so we had to blitz apartment complexes all over Rexburg. I had been on campus since 8:00 going to class, meeting with my group, and getting recruits I did all this while maintaining a smile on my face and the enthusiam required for the event. I was feeling a little in adequate so I said a small little pray in my head that I could get through the day. Two minutes later one of my good friends walked by my booth and without saying anything gave me one of the best hugs I have ever received, I felt my problems dissolve, and I was reminded of why I was here and why I was volunteering in the first place. What came next made my day he said "Did you know that you are wonderful?" I needed that almost more than I needed the hug. I continue to amaze myself when I don't think of a prayer at first, I feel that if I just did it before life would be a whole lot more simple. Lesson learned. Moral of the story give a hug whenever you can.

Hip Hip We Are Gray

I am doing Student Ambassador Council this semester and oh how I love it. This semester is the best one yet. I have a heavy work load, but the Lord has blessed me so much, I seem to always have time for everything I need to get done. We went on the council retreat, it was snowy and cold but I came to love everyone on council for Student Support which consists of SRC, Student Associations, Get Connected, Student Ambassadors, and Recruitment. An amazing group of people, working together for one amazing goal. More details later. Just know, I am loving this adventure.

Typical May day in Idaho

Struggle

I have embarked on my last semester at BYU-Idaho, hopefully. I have no idea where I am going after I graduate but I feel like I need to move on. Maybe Ill be at BYU, U of U, serving a mission, or in some third-world country volunteering in a orphanage. My path is unclear and while at times it scares me that I don't know what's coming, I find peace in knowing I have the potential to do anything. Secretly I am scared about this semester, scared I won't be able to understand my classes, scared that I'll want to change my major..again, scared that I will lose sight of what is really important, scared I won't find what I am looking for. In order to graduate I needed 20 more credits, so in order to save time and money I just decided to take them all in one semester. Bad idea? Yup. I feel so overwhelmed, it is the third week of school and already I have a million things to do, I feel like I just can't break the surface. To add to my school work, I joined student ambassador council which takes up 15 very precious hours, plus I am involved in the Neuroscience Acedemic Society (NAS) which is required for my BIO 240 class. I called my mom and broke down in tears, she tried to help me as I told her I was tired of school and I just wanted to be done. Dropping out felt like a good idea. After I hung up the phone, I dropped to my knees and cried really really hard and asked for help and a lot of it. I felt so alone, confused and lost and my dreams felt so far away. Still crying I crawled into bed, and after laying there for a few minutes I felt a blanket of peace, calm and love wash over me. I still have questions, I still get frustrated, and am stressed 96.47% of the time but I know that I can do this, I woke up the next day telling myself that I was going to take the day on and it was going to be a success, why? Because I said so. It is all part of the struggle, falling down and getting back up, all that matters is that we are standing in the end.